Alright. There's been a lot of drama going on here lately that I regretfully have been apart of. I need to tell you all MY side, and how I've been feeling. I also need to clarify a few untrue statements that have been said about me.
First, the whole thing with ShadowMark. I'm a senior in high school, and therefore, I am quite busy. I have to prepare for college, plus, I get quite a lot of homework. Shadow would come to me and tell me I didn't talk to her much anymore, and I would always tell her it was because I was busy. She still continued messaging me, trying to make it seem like I was angry with her or something. I would continue on telling her that I was busy. I also sent her a critique on her OC, Shawn, who I felt needed some improvements. She kind of ignored what I had to say. One of my close friends, RemiliaSweetheart, came to me and said ShadowMark was talking behind her back about her apparently not crediting users on bases she used. I felt I had to get involved, 'cause she's a close friend of mine on here. I told ShadowMark to leave her alone, and that's when the arguing began. After a long argument, I finally decided to block her because she wasn't sticking with the topic of our argument, and she was acting immature towards me. Note that I am 18, and she's supposed to be 20. I handled the situation as maturely as I could. She began spreading lies about me and RemiliaSweetheart, and more drama came. But, that died down when we told our friends the truth of what happened. Blocking Shadow helped us to not argue anymore, and since we're not arguing anymore, that issue's been solved.
And of course, the most recent drama dealing with Cohen, Kinga, Sofi, and Mira. You see, I was sent a "critique", which goes like this:
"To our dearest Sumer.You know how much we all love you, right?you're a truly talented girl, and we know you will go far ^^But, as talented and sweet as you are, we've been worried about you love..so, We've decided to do our best and try to point out from our point of view <3Ok, here is my advise to her: Clay like very human has two eyes, but in show one of his eyes are mostly hiden under fringle, the way you draw him looks like he as one one eye on one side of face, which also brongs me to tell you that the way you drew lips is also weird looking, normal people have lips under noses, not on cheek, i hope this time you will not ignore my advice like last timeyour sercely KingaI think she should stop doing arms like she does, they look awfully weird =_=and start to draw more on paperI mean ok she use Paint and that's a not so great programbut, or you dowload and use somwthing better, or you draw on paperHope this'll help, Sofi My critique for you is this: Renai is way to obsessed with Clay. It almost seems as if she was created as the perfect match for him, somehow without Clay she isn't Renai. I strongly hope you take my advice and work a bit more on her characteristics. You've alrealy improved her elemental powers, to make her seem more "right", let's say. I also think it would be wise to work on the faces. We've seem you improving, but your art needs more development.Your good friend, MiraSumer, you know how I admire your work right? and you know how much I love Renai, and you.It's just, something can't be ignored... the way you accept critisizem.Critisizem only helped me in life, as much as sometimes it hurt... thanks to it, I'm a much better artist then I once was, and I always welcome it. and I think you should too. And that you sould stop your friendship with somebody because of a little fight, not to mention blocking him :<Another thing, I realy think that you should try more programss then just MS paint, I send you Sai and Photoshop once, hoping you'll give them aa try XD There's also gimp, who's free loves you forever, Shay C:Now you see? It's not only 1 person, but 4. and there are more who wanna help you so please, we do this for love, please listen to us, we're not doing this to feel "supiriour, because we're not "the best" as well, we just care. Loves
Now, you tell me if you feel this is a "critique". I certainly feel like it's not. First of all, I didn't ask for any critique on anything. This note they sent me was pointless, and, because of all this drama now occurring, it did more harm than good. They're basically telling me how to make my art, which I find to be stupid. It's MY art, and therefore, I'll make it however I please. As for the "Renai obsessed with Clay" thing, that is NOT true. I know obsessive relationships would never work, and I try my best not to make Renai seem obsessive. I just want a sweet relationship for them, 'cause Clay deserves a sweet girl.
The only one out of the three who's innocent in this is Mira. She came to me and apologized, agreeing with me on the fact that this was all pointless and was more of an attack than a critique. I was upset to see that she was apart of this, because out of all 4 of them, I'm really close with Mira. Now, as for the other 3, things aren't so fine. Cohen wants to leave the fandom, Sofi flipped out at me when I told her I didn't want to change anything, and Kinga is angry because Cohen is leaving.
ShadowMark and Kinga have said the same things about me. They both have described me as being a heartless, drama queen who feeds off attention and doesn't care about anyone else on here. They both also brought up Clay, saying that I'm obsessed with him and only care about him, and if anyone makes pictures of Renai without him in them, I don't acknowledge or comment on them. I've also been yelled at for blocking/ignoring people when arguing with them.
I did NOT ask for the popularity. When I first came into the fandom, I honestly didn't think many people would like my art. I just wanted to make some friends and show my art. That's it. I'm shy, so popularity isn't something I find myself wanting, but I got it somehow. I have a heart and a soul, and I care very much about the friends I have on here. My friends are like family to me, and they're there for me when I need them most. Yes, I'll admit, I love Clay very much, even though he's just a cartoon character, but, he's more than that to me. I hate how people keep bringing him up just to bring me down. He has nothing to do with anything, so please shut up about him. If you look in my gallery, I do have pictures of Renai WITHOUT him. She CAN fend for herself, without him assisting her. If you look in my favorites gallery, you can see that a lot of people were sweet enough to make me pictures of my OCs, including Renai. Yes, they made pictures WITHOUT Clay, and if you look at them, I have in fact commented on them. Wanna know why I block people? To STOP the drama. I deal with drama in real life, and it makes me feel worse knowing I have to deal with it on here too. I go on here to have fun and express my imagination, but I guess even this place ain't safe from reality. If anyone on here has a problem with me, first, I try talking with them. If they act immaturely towards me, like a few certain people have, I block them, since I feel there's no use talking with someone who wants to act dramatic. I don't want drama. I HATE drama. I'm no drama queen. I don't mean to cause drama. I honestly don't.
I'll delete this journal later on, but for now, it's staying up. I just want you all to see what I've been feeling about everything, and see my side of the story. I'm sorry about all the drama that's been occurring, and I'm sorry some of you have been dragged into it, though some people dragged themselves into it because people who aren't involved like getting involved for God knows what reason. Anyway, I know this is long, but I had to let my emotions out. I'm upset with everything that's been going on. and I don't like hurting people. ShadowMark and I weren't even close friends, so having her out of my life doesn't affect me much, but I feel bad if I hurt her. Cohen and I aren't close either, but I hate seeing her leave the fandom because of me, and of course, her other problems. Mira, I'm happy she apologized and I'm glad we're ok now. As for Kinga and Sofi, I'm not close with them either. They can hate me all they want, but I won't stop loving what I love, and I won't change myself for them. I just want my friends to see I'm not a monster, and I love you all very much. You guys are why I come on here. You'll still see art from me, and I'm not changing a thing about it. That's the end of my long rant. Kthanxbai.